Life as we know it & some BIG news.
I was on a retreat with my cohort my senior year of collage and I had one of those moments that where you entire world shuts off. You realize I wasn't made for this. As much as I dearly loved Western, my lifelong friendships, and internship. THIS wasn't meant for me. It's a hard thing to stomach, being a senior in college and realizing the journey you just went on might not end like you dreamed. So long story short EmilieCarol Photography was born the fall of the Senior year, by the time I graduated it was clear it would be full time soon, so I went for it. I jumped in head first, I took the largest crash course of my life. I devoted every penny, every decision, and every relationship to building this business. I worked harder than I ever had in my whole life, I loved, I laughed, I cried. I have no regrets. It taught me SO much about life, it grew me up quickly. I was now on this large stage, and it was go time. It was exciting it kept me traveling 40+ weeks a year, every day brought a bright exciting new opportunity and I SAID YES to them all. I allowed this rapid success of my business to distort the reality. I remember my family saying often how I lived in my own world and I just acted on every impulse and did everything how I wanted and when I wanted. I embodied that role to the core of my being.
TV time out- there is NOTHING wrong with that, and if you are someone pouring it ALL into building a business, keep pushing. it's worth it all, and no matter what the next chapter of my life brings, there isn't one single thing I would regret about what I poured into my business.
So fast forward to July of 2013. I decided to close my studio for the month, lay by the pool, and take the month off. Seems like a dream, and for a day it was. I quickly realized the next month of my life would reveal more about my character, family , and life than any other moment in my life. July & August brought my entire family to their knees, it was the most humbling time in my life. I was at the top of my career and bottom of my life. I was being thrown heartbreak after heartbreak and I was standing on sinking ground. I spent many nights with my Dad in the hospital, with no answers, more surgery and only small victories. I was so thankful that for whatever selfish reasons lead me to take the month off were really protecting me from the only thing I would have ever regretted. Not being there. I spent all my time by my families side, and I realized that's where I belonged. That since I was 16, I had been searching for where I belonged, but was way to traumatized and stubborn to admit that where I belonged was home. That same month I met sweet Bryan, there simply not enough words to explain that man. He loves me so well. He loves me to be ME, the best ME. Every single day. It's hard to be yourself... every girl dreams of a fairy tale, but what every girl should really dream of is man that loves her enough to challenge her to greatness day in and day out. It's the biggest fairy tale of all, because when you push to be yourself day in and day out, you discover this contentment that is second to none.
January rolled around and I decided I wanted to spend more time home, step back from the daily studio duties and really allow myself to focus on a core group of clients every year. I had new loves, and a family that needed me. So I opened an office here to try to start building my business in the Raleigh area, knowing my end game was to live close to Family & Bryan. I didn't know how it would work out, and I still had so much going on I just began focusing on day to day and allowing fate to take it's course.
Bryan and I decided we were ready to have a place to call home. I was terrified and worried so I felt the need to hoover over his process every day. Call realtors all the time, etc. It wasn't a good for us. I came to realization that for this to really work for us, I was going to have to trust that he could choose a realtor, find us a house, without me ever seeing it. I stepped back and trusted him to lead us. There aren't really words to explain the first time I saw our house, it was an overwhelming feeling knowing that not only had it knocked it out of the park, but I gave up enough control of this situation to allow greatness. I couldn't have built a house this perfect, if it was up to me. BIG THANK YOU to our awesome realtor, WE LOVE YOU Lindsay!
SO this really long blog post is really to tell you some exciting news that you probably already know, and what to expect moving forward.
1. I am OFFICIALLY moving to Raleigh, North Carolina.
heres a photo of our NEW house :)
